Hey Friends.
So far 2009 is awesome! Though I have now gotten in the pattern of drinking heavily and staying up until all hours of the night and sleeping each day until the afternoon. I know this week I am going to have to shake myself out of that, but for now I am loving the irresponsibility. And the booze.
NYE was quite a lot of fun. I was amazed at the number of people who came out to the Chucklebowl, and the number of people who came to see the show and not just to bowl! We had no idea what to expect with the show--could people see or hear us? Would they even care? When the show started (About 11pm) we had a HUGE crowd all shoved into the bar portion of the Lincoln Lanes. I was taking a leap of faith with Cutie--I was entirely self contained with my bits (I had one pocket with the "crotch slip" {note for those unfamiliar--this is a slip that "talks". It isn't as dirty as it sounds}, my stuffed cat for my wildcat bit in the back of my tutu, poppers for my new "Rock and Roll Pt 2" bit, and all my Mambo #5 tank tops on for the whole show) and the biggest thing of all--I didn't have my boombox with me and instead had all my songs played over the sound system. Turns out, it worked pretty well! I personally had a good show--I think a lot of the humor of Sasha and Noob was lost on the crowd because it is so subtle--but I think everyone was into Cutie's schtick. It was fun. Unlike the other 2 comedians, I got all my bits out, although we had to cut the show short, then before we knew it, it was midnight and we were all worn out and went home.
Later that night, Erica came over! Hooray! I hadn't seen her in way too long, and it was the best visit ever. We stayed up for hours talking that night, then the whole next day was us catching up, reminiscing, talking about DADA and the NY Neofuturists, talking about our families, reading things we've written to each other, drinking tons of wine and odd spirits, eating (including our New Years Business--black eyed peas and greens), taking pictures and making videos, watching videos, laughing, crying, hugging, and before we knew it, it was again 3:30 in the morning. Erica had to drive the bazillion hours back to NY on her own, but she made it, bless her heart. It was the absolute perfect New Years Day.
So far this year, I am feeling good. I feel free for some reason. I am currently not working on any shows, and it feels good to not have that responsibility. I am trying to reconnect with people I haven't seen or talked to in a while. I usually write a new year's manifesto of things I plan on accomplishing during the year, but I think this year I am going to try to take it one day at a time. I am going to try to see the bigger picture and not let little things affect me so much. I will keep in mind that work is just that, and I shouldn't define myself by it. I will listen to my heart and my gut and try to take better care of my mental health. I want to try to have as much fun as I can and be appreciative of the blessings that I have been given. I want to clean out the physical, mental and emotional clutter that I've been living with for the past several years.
I also hope to take a vacation this year!
As mom said, "2009, Everything will be fine!" Although I know that there are still hard times ahead, I hope that the things I have learned in the past help me deal better with the things that are in my future. And with that, I hold my glass up in a toast and am thankful with who I am and all the blessings that I have been given.
AMEN!