Feeling Good

Here is a quick update on my summer:

I spent July very quietly—not communicating a lot, and focusing on resting and getting back into therapy. I did only what I felt like I could do, and I am happy to say that it worked. I feel a renewed sense of self these days, and a remarkable clarity on what I can and cannot do. I’ve realized that there is a LOT that I can’t or don’t want to do, so I am going to try everything I can to break the patterns that make me feel like I must do them. My focus moving forward is going to be on down time and truly listening to myself and my heart and my gut.

I also feel remarkably blessed. Just when I was feeling ready to take on a job again, one came along. It’s full time, but temporary, and at a place I really want to work. I am excited, and it feels good.

I also remembered that I get to do amazing things. Working with a client this week, I felt like I truly AM talented with the gifts that I was given (in this case, choreography). I also am in awe that I get to work with She’s Crafty—at MCA Day this weekend, we raised a ton of money for cancer charities and blew the roof off of Lincoln Hall with a packed audience. And I was a part of it. I am so honored. Here is a fun video that Rebecca took of me living the dream:

One of my goals for this break was to remember how to have fun. And we’ve certainly done that, too. Fuzzy surprised me with ziplining, we went to Windsor, ON for our 9th wedding anniversary, Rebecca and I had a blast at Phish weekend. Fuzzy and I have spent most of this summer laughing, and it’s the best feeling ever.

So things are good. No, they are GREAT. I am happy. And it feels great.